Time doesn't stand still.

My best friend now has a girlfriend. That fact alone doesn't bother me. I spent one day being jealous and that was all it took. Now I'm fine...sort of. I mean, once I got past the fact that I found out on facebook (where I'm now expected to get all important information from). See, we went from talking every day to whenever it was most convenient for both of us. Translation: Our relationship has been reduced to a few texts a week. Maybe an email sent from me to him. And that was before he started dating this girl.

The biggest adjustment will be not being that person he wants to tell things to, or the person he wants to call right away when something exciting happens. That is the part I really really hate. I've gotten so accustomed to hearing all about his day to day life. And he's still the one I want to call up and to talk about my life. He has no idea that I've been on six dates with three different guys in the last two weeks, and that makes me sad. I want him to know stuff like that. But he rarely even asks about my life anymore so...I will just have to get used to this new relationship we have.

He's happy though. Really really happy. I've been trying to find something that would make him happy for quite a while now. If only I had known what it would take, perhaps I would have found him a girlfriend myself...or maybe not. I'm selfish. I don't share well. I'm used to either having something or giving it up all together. Maybe if I wasn't in school. Maybe if life was less stressful. Maybe if time would just slow down...

I am quickly learning that life does not sit around and wait for you to be comfortable with it. I will work even harder to balance my life, and learn to do it on my own. And no matter what happens in the next few weeks of my life, I wish him all the best. Sincerely.